Consult Your Faith Not Your Forecast

Watching the wind..it's needing to be in a good mood to keep your commitments.

I've been watching the wind, allowing the consequences of its movements to determine my commitments. And when my expectations aren't met I am overcome with intimidation.

Numbers - 13: 26-33 - The people seen the land they were promised flowing with milk and honey. They allowed the view of the people there to intimidate their right to take possession of their land. They didn't expect that it would take faith to get what they wanted so badly even though God had promised it to them, and so they were eager to give up. Unbelief overlooks the promises and power of God, magnifies every danger, doubt and difficulty, and fills the heart with discouragement.

How has God Corrected me? Instances of failures in my life where I have felt punished by God are actually ways where God has provided correction in my life. He provides correction with love even though we feel pain.

Sometimes in times of pain and weakness I am overcome with peace because I know the ending is better then the beginning, in which I thought was amazing. What keeps us from receiving our best blessings is ourselves and self-doubts.

I often post about dark things or instances where it appears my emotions have over taken my reasoning. And it's true, and hopefully relatable. My best thoughts come when I am in a low place and I'm okay with that. I lose sight of reasoning when I am in a moment of vulnerability but always after I'm looking to God to work on me and my heart and work on my ways and how I love people. Its easy you know, to write a story as a victim because the words flow so easily. Truth is the hard pill to swallow.

Consult your faith not your forecast. This is something I am working on. By forecast, changing of weather, I am talking about emotions. I heard recently that emotions are actually vibrations in the body that our bodies are trying to push out. That is why they come and go. But, as people when faced with emotion, tend to stand still and react.

I have been working on my emotions and when faced with an uncomfortable one; will talk myself through it and remind myself its just a passing vibration. Some people may find this silly but if you could take a glimpse of my past you would see an out of control, angry and emotionally unstable woman.

Even though I pray everyday, I continue to fall short. And that is okay. I am broken and need healing EVERY SINGLE DAY. Am I a Christian? yes. Do I display amazing examples of following Jesus? Nope. But I know God knows my heart and we always go from there.